As I Sat There
I sat in a crowd of people, all waiting for you.
The devotion, passion, and love in our voices
Was too clear to go unnoticed.
I sat there in anticipation for your arrival.
Imagining your long, bright orange robe, and sparkling eyes
Slowly walking to your chair, blessing us all with your presence.
I sat there, the heat almost overwhelming,
But not as overwhelming as the reoccurring thought of
“He isn’t coming.”
I sat in the crowd of people, my hope slowly diminishing
With every bhajan that was sang
Marking another three minutes without you there.
I sat there, and prayed.
I thanked you; for all that you have done for me,
For blessing me with the best possible life a young girl could have.
For giving me the opportunity to experience this glorious place.
I sat there, my prayers becoming pleads for your presence.
I could not help but feel as if
You did not want to see me.
As if I did something wrong.
I sat there; tears blurring my vision
As the final few bhajans were being sung.
And as I finally gave up all hope,
You came.
The car drove in, and I saw your face
And the tears were uncontrollable.
All I could say,
All I could think,
All I could feel,
Was Thank you.
Those few moments, although brief
Were all I needed.
All I wanted.
And as I sat there, and bhajan ended,
My wishes were fulfilled.
I could not help but feel as if
You came to see me.
Giving me reassurance of your unconditional love.
Allowing me to feel unconditionally loved
By You.